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USERNAME: HANK

Hank here. I probably don’t give a rat’s ass what you have to say. Leave me alone. How the hell do I get this damn thing to stop rec — [BEEP]

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I did nothing to cause the destruction of the trolley.

[He hadn't even been riding it and he enjoyed the trolley rides.]

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I know, Connor.

[Or: it would be difficult for Hank to accept otherwise. They did have a nice trolley trip a while back, which devolved into their brand of bickering, but...

That’s just sort of their thing, unfortunately.]

What I’m saying is more... I mean, if you’d been on the thing when it happened, or something else like that — you’d tell me, right? Would tell me if you got hurt. You wouldn’t just suffer in silence.

[The way Hank does.]

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[That's a good question, actually. Would Connor tell Hank and risk Hank diving deep into a well of grief and guilt?]

I may have before. [Connor finds that the truth is the best response here.] But, no. I don't think I would tell you if I was hurt.

[He still remembers Solmara, being strangled and then tossed off the side of a building. He remembers awakening, missing plates. And then not long after, he arrived here in Etraya.]

I wouldn't want you to worry.

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[Hank is slipping out of his jacket, tossing it onto the couch: still a slob. Sorry, Connor. Some habits are hard to break.

He isn’t sure what he expected Connor to say, but it isn’t that. Even if the answer doesn’t surprise him.

Part of Hank thought Connor might lie to comfort him.]

Well, now I’ve gotta worry about you extra hard, don’t I? [It’s not as if he can blame Connor — he really can’t — but goddamn why can’t Connor go along with the whole “do as I say, not as I do” thing?]

I’d do the same, y’know. Two stubborn fucks here, I guess. I wish —

[Hank squints as he stares up at the wall. Gaze sliding back toward Connor’s painting.

He wishes a lot of things. Most of which he has little power over, but Hank can still try.]

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[Connor stares at Hank, eyebrows raised as he listens to him. He follows Hank's gaze back to the painting and then to Hank once more.]

You wish what, Hank?

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You want an essay, Connor? I’m like a broken record over here. [Said not unkindly, although somewhat dismissive.

Hank has said this all a million times, and he isn’t exactly a fan of repeating himself — especially when it’s for things like this, things that make him feel vulnerable.

But it’s Connor, so:]

You know I want you to be safe. Which is why — [a little side glance toward Connor] — I wish you’d tell me if something happened. If you got hurt. How am I supposed to help you if you don’t tell me?

[Not that Hank has been great at helping Connor, anyway. He’s been so focused on the here and now, Connor right here in front of him, that Connor had to go and make that list of Hank’s failures. The guy doesn’t even have bedsheets or spare clothes, for fuck’s sake.]

And I want you happy. So I like that you’re, y’know — [gesturing to Connor’s painting with a nod] — like that you’re painting. I like that a lot.

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[Connor, at least, looks sheepish for asking again. It's nice to hear, he's not sure how else to describe it.]

I will reach out when I need help.

[And another nod.]

I enjoy painting. I hope to share more with you.